Let me share with u my personal reflection of year 2008.
In year 2008, my whole christian journey was really a roller-coaster ride.When i got on board the poly area leadership, it was a real challenge for me to handle.i guess the first part of the year, i wasn't growing very well in my spiritual life.i think i got very comfortable in my own comfort zone like most of the times.mostly in cell ,i am always very very quiet and just sitting there at a corner,just observing how do u lead word.I am supposed to be the one leading because i am gonna lead this cell by myself very soon but instead you are the one always leading.when u always ask me if i was ready to lead word,i always avoid the question by saying a No or saying that i am still not comfortable to lead yet.The reasons why i don't feel comfortable yet is because i didn't have a strong bible knowledge as i am not able to quote verses from the bible,and i am unable to construct questions using the cell guide as a base that can relate to my members.I really wan step out of my comfort zone and be a effective leader for God.it is just that i really don know how.
Second part of the year, was slightly better for me.When i see the cell members attend cell regularly,i am really happy.Not because of the number, but more of that the cell members are slowly taking the ownership of this cell as they feels the need to belong in a community.i am even happier when both vera and dawn signed up for camp.seeing both of them taking that step of faith to go for camp.Highlife camp was a great time.I bonded well with my group members.But more importantly, it was a time of renewal of the spirit.
2009
At that moment,i realised that it was time to make a change in life.I started to read the bible again.spending like 10 - 15 mins a day reading and praying in order to grow spiritually.In order to see that my cell members grow,i myself have to grow first.last week,when i attended cell on wednesday, my assistant cell leader Charmaine Ong was sharing about the importance of community.a cell group is like a small community of God where God's people gather to fellowship,have fun,grow together and studies God's word together.And on thursday when the cell members and both u and i listed down our expectations about the ideal cell group that we want, i realised that in order for this to happen first, i have to build a closer relationship with my members, to share lives with them, go through problems and basically almost everything.Being very real to them,so i decided that i will invent more time with my members by meeting them on a weekly basis.I have to start off now before it is too late.Realising that U are going into Ns soon, make me wan to quickly get equipped with all the skills that i need and spend more time with u so that i can learn from u more.i really wan to work much more closer with u.i just wan a fresh start.i don wan to get back to my old ways.
